designmylife

11:28 pm: You know what it's like feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man. But, at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness, even if it's never going to be with you.

09:57 pm: Love and Hope are always possible

03:00 pm: April...really?
I can't believe it's already April.
So some updates..
-I still work at the Foo (Ruby Foo's)
-I got a raise and moved up a position
-I've designed 5 shows since I've graduated and I'm not currently even looking for the next one
-I like that the weathers starting to become nice
-I enjoy taking long walks while listening to music
-I miss a lot of my friends who have sort of disappeared
-If you are one of them just give me a call or shoot me a message
-I still have hope for someone
-I'm starting to look for a new roommate for next year (hopefully Jenna will pull through)
-I am really starting to like my apartment and what I've done to it
-I've really learned how to live and do EVERYTHING on my own
-I work out and eat healthy now
-Despite how shitty my life has been these past 8 months I've tried to make the best of it and am hopeful for the future.
-I thought this was easier then writing a bunch of paragraphs

03:40 pm: Short Update
I can't believe I've been in manhattan now for 6 months. Time goes waaaay to fast.
There are way to many things I want to write about but I need to go to work...booo

Does anyone actually read this thing?

12:04 am: And the truth is....
I keep holding off on doing something I've wanted to do now for about 4 months. I don't do it because people tell me not to. They say it will make things worse. I wonder if they are right but I more often wonder if they are wrong. I am scared, no terrified to do this change, so much so that it makes everything else I do in life so easy and insignificant, which maybe be a good thing. I am so much more relaxed and easy going then I used to be because very little bothers me in comparison to this one thing in life.
Since I have moved into NYC it has been a real journey. I have grown a little, I have become very independent out of necessity. Right now I think I have to do what my gut is telling me to do no matter the result. It might be good for me, There is only one way to find out.


I told you starting to write in this thing wasn't going to be good.
Boo you whore.

10:08 pm: crap
Unfortunately I think I might start writing in this thing again.

07:29 pm: It's a hard nock life
I am really happy to have Maggie in my life.


ps. I never use this thing

02:37 am: Look an Entry
The people around me sculpt who I am
I feel as if I am a block of clay waiting to be molded and was once a piece of art someone once thought of creating and starting working on and got lost halfway through and decided to stop because I was to much of a challenge, I don't want to dry up and become hard and never be finished. It's not the fear of not being finished that scares me, it's the point that no one wants to try and finish molding me into my true shape.


Won't Jenna be proud, I actually wrote in an entry, I actually first just wrote this in this stupid word document of mine where I keep things that I sometimes think about.

To bad this wasn't an overly happy entry...but when are they?

08:09 pm: why am I actually writing in this thing?
So I just saw Garden State for the first time. I really liked it, It made me real down and sorta hopeful all at the same time. I havent been motivated to do many things lately. I need a push from someone, this movie gave me hope in I guess finding something real and good, even when everything else sorta sucks.

I guess I'll keep writing in this thing because people only have to read it if they want to. I love talking so I guess this is a way to get things out there?

Hm ok I am actually motivated to do some hw for the first time in so long.

10:49 pm: My First
My first LJ entry....cool


I think I choose to call this "designMYlife" because I feel my friends really make me who I am and who I've become to be. I joined this thing to just be that much more connected with my friend.....so there ya go